‘Hey, what’s up with you not answering your texts?’ ‘Knock, knock, knock.’ Seth raps on the door as he cracks it open and sticks his head in. While he had self-harmed, his father was the one who made the start and the worst of the injuries that had nearly killed him and almost ruined the future we have now. No, he’s much better than he was a year ago when I met him in the clinic that horrible day, the place where he was sent because nurses and doctors thought he’d stabbed himself. I want us to share with Kayden, because he seems a little sad lately. Yes, the memories are still there, scarring my past, but they don’t define me anymore. The person who hurt me has vanished and even though there was no resolution for what he did to me, I feel like my inner demons connected to him – what he did – have been resolved. Or perhaps I’m just looking for something to explain this strange, new, liberating feeling residing in my heart, because the past seems so distant now. Or possibly that I’m moving more freely through life than I ever have. A future that is filled with endless possibilities.ĭespite my positivity, I do feel like something has been missing from my life lately, but I can’t figure out what it is exactly. This reminder is what keeps me happy, moving forward in my life, letting go of what happened with Caleb, and living my life for the future.

They remind me that the world is always changing, that people are always changing, that I’m always changing. Snowflakes tumbling from the sky and swirling through the air. Just like I might never be able to let go. I don’t know where he is – what he’s doing. But to get it, I need to let go and I can’t let go when everything is so unknown.

My pulse is pounding, my limbs aching, begging me to stop.

My feet pound against the dirt as my lungs tighten in my chest, my entire body dripping with sweat even though it’s barely fifty degrees and I’m wearing shorts. I can’t outrun them, escape them, hide from them. My father’s words scream from behind me like a ghost as I race around the track.

The resolution of callie and kayden